There has been some progress with our agency over the last couple of weeks that we can’t fully disclose details around, but the reality of moving closer to bringing our child home from Guinea is front and center. This last week, we have been processing the fact that our distant “yes” to adoption has now become a closer, and not-so-comfortable, “yes.” As we have these discussions with our agency, I feel unprepared, ill-equipped, and insufficient to mother two children of different ages and backgrounds as a new parent, jumping into so many unknowns all at once. On a run yesterday, I was praying. I told God that I don’t know if I am enough for this, or even the best person for this job. In that moment I was reminded that it is not about who I believe that I am, but about who HE says that I am, and who HE is. This was a humbling reminder that all we can do is take one step after another, and put our TRUST in a powerful God that will provide for our needs along the way. His plan is so much bigger than we could have ever imagined, and leaning into that is scary. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. “ vs. 10 says “For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
In our weak, uncomfortable “yes,” we are strong.