terrifying and amazing


“If it’s both terrifying and amazing, then you should definitely pursue it.” What an accurate portrayal of adoption. Amazing AND terrifying. We have a travel phone call scheduled with our agency this week, to discuss details and recommendations for while we are in Guinea and Senegal. (We will be traveling to Conakry to have giving and receiving ceremony with the orphanage and village, and then fly to Dakar, Senegal for visa appointments.) When we ask our agency to predict the timeframe for when we might be traveling, there are still no answers, and they are afraid to guess. Until we have an official appointment with the embassy in Dakar, they will not give us estimated dates for travel. The meeting this week is just to prepare us, and encourage us to start planning for our trip, vaccines, etc.

We have been waiting for this conversation for years. Some days, I wake up and mourn the fact that our son is not yet home with us. That someone else has the opportunity to shape and influence his little 3-year-old life, not us. And yet, now that we are in the midst of having these conversations, it is all becoming so real, and I feel terrified. It is the strangest feeling to want something so badly, but also be terrified. Surrender. Faith. Grace. Those 3 words have been and will continue to be my mantra through this process.

So we prepare, and we wait. We were told to plan as much as $5,000 per person for travel. Yes, PER PERSON. (What?!) This is because we need flights that are flexible for changes, since visa appointments (and this process in general) can be unpredictable. We have been so generously supported in our journey with fundraising to bring our little guy home, and we are so thankful. We are doing one last adoption fundraiser to help us with the travel costs to bring our son home. There are 5,864 miles from Guinea to Denver. Our goal is to raise $1 per mile traveled on the flight back home with our son. Would you consider purchasing “miles” to help us with his travel costs? Click here to donate for miles. We will keep our “mileage” fundraising efforts updated on our donate page. Thank you all for your generous support. I don’t even have the words to say how grateful we are.

Thank you for being part of this long journey with us. We can’t wait until we have him home, and can look back on all of this with all of our family and friends, seeing God’s faithfulness through it all.

Aubrie, Ben, and

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